Tag Archives: agitation
Fuck You, Depression
I am back on familiar ground- depression. I don’t think my Grandpa’s death triggered it because when I think of him, I am sad but only mildly. I think the stress of his death and my family’s suffering was the … Continue reading
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Feelings and Shiz
I have been feeling strange. Yes, I am aware that this is a very unhelpful adjective but that is what it is- strange. Sort of tense but happy and excited at the same time. That doesn’t make sense. Happy and … Continue reading
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Triggers
* This may contain triggers and spoilers for Breaking Bad, Season 2, Episode 6* Recently, The Boy and I have been watching Breaking Bad. It is a really good show that we had started watching ages ago but I stopped … Continue reading
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Like a Loon
Slowly folding into my own mind. No one else exists. Do I? Is this a ‘mixed episode’? I have been fluctuating between happy as a loon, to depressed as all hell. But agitated. Nothing will drive this agitation away. I … Continue reading
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Bah, Humbug!
I hate the holidays. As I work retail, I don’t really get holidays anyway. The shops are always busy, people are greedy as fuck, and I have to deal with family. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family. They … Continue reading
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Oddness
This is just for the purpose of documentation. I am really not sure what is happening with me, I just know that none of it’s good. I am in a weird mood. I feel prickly and have so much energy but … Continue reading
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I Sometimes Get Depressed Without Reason
Or at least a known reason, an obvious reason. My depression may be reactive. It doesn’t seem like it is to me but there are some obvious reasons why it could be. I have been thinking about it a lot … Continue reading
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17 Days
17 days of energy. 17 days of fluctuating between “hyper” and suicidal. 17 days of little sleep. 17 days of shaking and bouncing. 17 days of not feeling ill and feeling the worst I have ever felt. 17 days of clarity … Continue reading
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Ramblings of the Insane
I am considering a frontal lobe lobotomy. Seriously, please take a slice of my brain. If it will stop the chattering and the compulsive suicidalthoughts urges then have it. Living as a vegetable will be a small price to pay … Continue reading
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Fucking Exhausting
This is the only time I have really wanted to write in the last ten days. For those ten days, my energy has been high, my tolerance has been low, and my head has been constant noise. Many layers of … Continue reading
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